Trust His Heart

"When it's hard to understand His ways, stand on His promises.  When it's hard to trace His hand -- trust His heart." Ann Voskamp

I don't love my life right now.  There have been times when I have.  Times I've woken up in the morning glad to be alive, eager for my feet to hit the floor. I've felt the energy of doing what I love, the satisfaction of working hard and seeing results.

Right now seems the opposite.  I don't even know what to dream anymore.  I'm scared to want things.  I feel a little lost and very alone.  I hate typing these things, because I try to will them to not be true.  This isn't me.

It's hard to trace His hand right now.  When the lines go all over the place and I can't keep up.

But I keep hearing this quiet voice whispering to my heart, "press in."

So I let the tears fall.  I feel the disappointment.

My emotions were high this morning, it felt good being at church, surrounded by good people.  But a simple text that canceled my lunch plans with a friend sank my feelings low.

Trust His heart.

Stand on His promises.

How do I know His promises?  Read His word.
Saturate my soul with the truth of scripture.

Do I trust His heart?  Do I trust that His plans are good?  Do I trust that times like this won't last forever, and it's in the pruning that fruit is able to grow (ah! more on that later as well).

I wrote this a couple weeks ago, I had forgotten to post it - and of course more has happened since then.  God has been faithful to remind my heart of the truth.  And I want to write more, I always do.