"When it's hard to understand His ways, stand on His promises. When it's hard to trace His hand -- trust His heart." Ann VoskampI don't love my life right now. There have been times when I have. Times I've woken up in the morning glad to be alive, eager for my feet to hit the floor. I've felt the energy of doing what I love, the satisfaction of working hard and seeing results.
Right now seems the opposite. I don't even know what to dream anymore. I'm scared to want things. I feel a little lost and very alone. I hate typing these things, because I try to will them to not be true. This isn't me.
It's hard to trace His hand right now. When the lines go all over the place and I can't keep up.
But I keep hearing this quiet voice whispering to my heart, "press in."
So I let the tears fall. I feel the disappointment.
My emotions were high this morning, it felt good being at church, surrounded by good people. But a simple text that canceled my lunch plans with a friend sank my feelings low.
Trust His heart.
Stand on His promises.
How do I know His promises? Read His word.
Saturate my soul with the truth of scripture.
Do I trust His heart? Do I trust that His plans are good? Do I trust that times like this won't last forever, and it's in the pruning that fruit is able to grow (ah! more on that later as well).
I wrote this a couple weeks ago, I had forgotten to post it - and of course more has happened since then. God has been faithful to remind my heart of the truth. And I want to write more, I always do.
